Randomness

Today at morning tea, my colleague and I had an interesting chat. She said I was "like a movie" in that I had little fixed sense of self. She also told me that I pretend to be a committment phobe but what I - deep-down - wanted was a relationship; this, at least, is true.

I act differently in different situations. But, isn't it boring to act the same way constantly? Rather than showing weakness, does this not show strength in that I am following my beliefs - that there is not fixed, essential character - and that I am able to have fluid conceptions of essentials?

12.9.08

Isn't it Odd?

I was just playing with the map I have on iGoogle and was looking around at the area in which I grew up. It is funny but when you are young your life can be reduced to just one road without needing any concept of how that road fits together with other roads or how the places you used to visit in childhood are discontinuous islands of memory? It also seems that the memories of what you did there have also gone so you are only left with this feeling that you know a place but you can't remember it or why you know it; you have only the fragments of a life frittered away in endless days of summer.

2.9.08

 
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